I've copied this from a site called Daily Om. To visit, click on the title of this post.
October 30, 2006
Going Through The Opening
Contracting Before Expanding
Sometimes our lives contract before they expand. We may be working hard on ourselves spiritually, doing good in the world, following our dreams, and wondering why we are still facing constrictions of all kinds-financial, emotional, physical. Perhaps we even feel as if we've lost our spirituality and are stuck in a dark room with no windows. We may be confused and discouraged by what appears to be a lack of progress. But sometimes this is the way things work. Like a caterpillar that confines itself to a tiny cocoon before it grows wings and flies, we are experiencing the darkness before the dawn.
When things feel tight, it's easy to panic or want to act in some way to ease the feeling of constriction. We might also spin our wheels mentally, trying to understand why things are the way they are. However, there is nothing we need to do at this time other than to be patient and persevering. We can cling to the awareness that we are processing the shift from one stage to another, and the more we surrender to the experience, the more quickly we will move through the tightness into the opening on the other side. Just like a baby making its way down the birth canal, we may feel squeezed and pushed and very uncomfortable, but if we remember that we are on our way to being born into a new reality, we will find the strength to carry on.
Even as we endure the contractions, we can find peace within ourselves if we remember to trust the universe. We can look to the natural world for inspiration as we see that all beings surrender to the process of being born. In that surrender, and in the center of our own hearts, is a willingness to trust in the unknown as we make our way through the opening.
Ok - after reading this, I realise that maybe this mis-communication and the blow up I had with my brother needed to happen before we can heal, grow as a family and move on. For me now, I am challenged to practise all that our trainings stand for : win-win, openness, trust, and most of all, not giving up.
As I write this, I am reminded of what Neal Donald Walsh said : all our thoughts, words and actions are motivated by either one of two things - love or fear. I have many times fround this to be true. Now I see both my dad and brother are operating from fear. And there is certainly a lot to fear - if we don't surrender to God.
I remember also Shahnaz said to pray for two things : 1. for understanding, and 2. to have the strength to face whatever God gives.
So, with this, I think I am now ready to plunge into the day and focus on work, work, work!
I wish all of you a great day ;)